Anxious-I was born to be this way

Scientists say it’s due to lack of serotonin

Mum says that I use fancy words

Others say it’s all in my head

Some say meditate others say medicate

But I know when you pay abrupt visits

My body warming up

Blood rushing like it has lost its way home

Thoughts scattered all over my head

Banging to come out

Hyperventilating

A wave of overwhelm hitting me

Drowning in my own apprehension

I knew this was my moment

It could not get any worse

The incident making me feel as a culprit

It didn't happen but it did in my head

You started feeding on me

like a crabgrass

lurking inside me

Running through my head

I was jumping from one thought to another

Surrounded by people but you sending me to delusional places

I can’t prove you so they think I am lying

I started looking up for your validation before everything I did

I began to shake for no reason

or probably there were too many reasons

I guess it is time

Not for a goodbye

But for me to learn

How to experience you better