Scattered Wires

Where are we going

We did all the grinding

The failure pushing me towards substances

I know what I am isn't defined by these instances

The fog in my brain has reappeared

All I see is all I've ever feared

Mumma hold me tight

I didn't turn out to be so bright

The truth stripping my insecurities and layering it into the reality

I want to push myself from the wall

However I know only I'll be there to pick myself from the fall

There was no light in the room

So I pushed the roof

I can see the sunbeam but I don't feel the gleam

These scattered wires of my brain

are wrapped around my body like an iron chain

Making it hard to breath

I know I want to surrender underneath

Everywhere I reside over and over once again the fog rides

Burning me under the skin

The only thing my vision sees is the darkness surrounded by fear

I want to cry but I am unable to shed a tear

I'm sinking

And I don't know where we are going